~ ♥ † ♥ Christopher ♥ † ♥ ~ Pilkington

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◄███▓▒░░ PILKINGTON ░░▒▓███►

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GODBLESS GONE TOO SOON ANGELS.
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PLEASE DO NOT COPY THIS POEM IT WAS SPECIALLY DONE, THANKYOU AUNTIE ROS FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL POEM.

MAMMIE.......
MAMMIE I AM SENDING THIS MESSAGE IS JUST FOR YOU
I WANT YOU TO KNOW JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU TOO
MAMMIE I DO NOT LIKE WHEN I LOOK DOWN AND SEE YOU CRY
I AM STILL LIVING IN YOUR HEART TUCKED INSIDE THERE I DID NOT DIE

MAMMIE I AM HAVING MY BIRTHDAY WITH THE ANGELS LIKE I ALWAYS DO
BUT THAT WILL NEVER STOP ME FROM SENDING KISSES DOWN TO YOU
I SEND THEM DOWN TO YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY TO MAKE YOU SMILE
MAMMIE I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN JUST NOT RIGHT NOW MAYBE IN A WHILE

PLEASE SMILE FOR ME MAMMIE CLOSE YOUR EYES AND SLEEP
BECAUSE I AM RIGHT WITH YOU THE DREAMS THAT I GIVE YOU ARE YOURS TO KEEP
ONE DAY MAMMIE WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER ONCE MORE
I WILL BE HOLDING OUT MY ARMS WHEN IT IS YOU TIME TO KNOCK ON HEAVENS DOOR

OH MAMMIE I NEARLY FORGOT TO TELL YOU THAT I AM SAFE TIL WE MEET AGAIN
WHEN IT IS YOUR TIME TO COME AND SEE ME MAMMIE I WILL CALL YOUR NAME
I HAVE TO GO THE ANGELS ARE CALLING MY NAME THEY WANT ME TO FLY
WITH MY WINGS OF PURE WHITE LACE JUST LIKE YOU SEE ON THE DANCING BUTTERFLY.......
copyright© Rosalind Roberts 8/10/09

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Dear Lord,
Please take care of all the little angels for us and tell them we love them so much and tell them
not to forget to come and give their mummys a big angel hug and kiss as they sleep, Amen

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ABOUT MY BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY CHRISTOPHER

Christopher was born 2lb 7oz, so small and so beautiful.
I went into labour nine week's before i had Christopher, i had to be hospitalised and was to stay in
hospital until i had him, not being allowed out of my bed, i did'nt mind, i thought "as long as my
baby is okay".
Every night you i would go into labour and be taken down to the delivery suite to be monitered and
given injections to stop the labour.
I was transferred from the Q.E Hospital in Gateshead to the Princess Mary Maternity Hospital in
Newcastle after being in hospital for 8 and a half weeks.
I woke up after a few days of being there to find the same pain i always felt when i was in labour
and though here we go again please let my baby be ok. I gave birth to Christopher on the ward and
all i heard was the sweetest tiniest little cry ever, i got a quick look at my beautiful little boy
before the rushed hin off to intensive care.
I phoned my mum and she came straight up to see us, i felt guilty as every night when i would go
into labour my mum would rush up to be with me, and then i had him without her being there.
When Christopher was a week old he had to have an operation on his bowel and was given a colostomy
on the friday night, my mam was due to go on holiday to the USA to see her sister, she did'nt want
to go and i told her to go as Christopher would be fine, it was a holiday she really needed, my mum
worried so much when she was over there about me and Christopher that she ended up haveing a heart
attack and was in intensive care.
I could'nt believe what was happening, then i got the news that Christopher needed another operation
on his bowel, they had to take more of it away, he was so brave and so small to be operated on, i
waited in the chapel of the hospital while the operated talking to my Dad who became an angel when i
was 8 years old, i remember saying "please dad you have one of my little boy's please don't take
another".
Christopher came out of surgery after 3 and a half hour's, i stayed with him night and day, and
although so small he had his wits about him. When he was sleeping i would say to my sister or
whoever was with me, come on lets go have a coffee and he would open his big blue eyes and put his
pet lip out, so i would stroke his little head and tell him "mammie's here sweetheart im not going
anywhere" and off he would go back to sleep again, the doctors said the had never seen such a bond
between a mother and premeture baby so strong before.
When Christopher was 6 weeks old he was taken off his ventilator, mainly because he was trying so
hard to pull it out himself and trying to breathe on his own. I was so proud of him, he was doing so
well and my mum was doing well too in hospital in USA so i was happy.
Then one night Christopher had a lung heamorage and stopped breathing, after half an hour the
doctor's brought him back. He lay there with his eyes taped shut as they would'nt close and were
getting sore.
They gave Christopher a Brain Scan after almost a week but it showed no activity and i was told to
make the decision to have his ventilator turned off.
After so much thought i made the decision for them to turn off his life support, it was the hardest
thing i have ever had to do, i just thought who the hell am i to say whether someone lives or not,
but in truth my sweet little son was'nt living, when they took out the tubes i held him close to me,
it was only the third time i had been allowed to hold him, i held him close and told him how much
mammie loved him and that he was'nt to suffer anymore, after a few minute's he fell asleep and went
to be with his big brother Phillip, now he lives with his angel Nanna and angel Grandad who i know
will take the best care of him, and im sure he is haveing a great time with his big brother Phillip
who i know will look out for him.
Night Night my little angel mammie loves you very much

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An Angel In The Book Of Life Wrote Down My Baby's Birth And Whispered As She Closed The Book 'Too
Beautiful For Earth'



♥ღ♥ I am safely in Heaven, dear ones:
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing past;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.

And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve me sorely,
For I love you dearly still;
Try to look beyond earth's shadows,
Pray to trust our Father's will ♥ღ♥